So, you know all that talk I was saying, "It's not an 'Oh my God what am I doing here panic'"?
Well, that was yesterday.
Today, I whine.
whine/Traveling to a foreign place where you don't know the language is haaarrrd./whine
Today, the "What are you doing here"'s showed up. The "you're wasting your time"'s, and the "you don't even really know what you're going to do"'s.
The doubt is here. And he's loud. And he's screaming. And why does this always happen after a major shift in your reality? I kinda think it's because it's part of your 'safety check'. If you're doing something you've never done before, I think sometimes your brain just freaks the hell out. It really has NO IDEA what's going on. It's scary. It's different. It's not bad, it's just different. But it's freakin' scary. And it needs to be absolutely SURE that you're doing this for the right reasons.
But man, he's loud. I really wish he'd shut up. I have an herbed ham sandwich and a glass of wine next to me. I'mma eat the hell outta that sandwich, and drink that wine like it's my job, wake up tomorrow, go to the Eiffel Tower, see Notre Dame, and tell my doubt to suck it.
SUCK IT!!
Yeah, I went there...
J
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